Thank you for dropping by.
It has taken me a long time to get the courage to make a public website, to share my thoughts and photos. For as long as I can remember I have put my thoughts and feelings down on paper. I have never been able to tell people what I felt and although I put most of these feelings on paper, I never really shared them either. I have boxes of notes, notepads, and scraps of paper that just sit there. From time to time I might go back and read some, but many are something of a release, and those are better off left hidden and forgotten.
10 Years ago I was diagnosed with Complex Post Traumatic Stress (Disorder), anxiety, and depression. These “injuries” I sustained on duty. It has taken me a long time to get to a stage where I can share some of my thoughts and images and each one has a story to me. I served my country, and I served my community. Both have left me with scars which may fade externally with time but I will carry some of the memories forever. I suppose this website is a step in my journey of self discovery. I am trying to find out who I am now because I am not the man I once was.
In sharing these thoughts, images, and videos publicly I am giving others an insight into who I was, and who I am now. Ernest Hemmingway once said, “In order to write about life first you must live it.” I have so much to be grateful for, my life, up until it all came crashing down was exciting, I have had opportunities I could never have dreamed of. I have loved, deeply, and unselfishly and have a second chance to do so. I have seen the best in man, but I have also seen the worse. I have demons that follow me and attack when I am at my lowest or at night. However, when I sit down to write or get behind a lense I am lost to my pain, the horrible memories fade and I am, just for a brief time, being lost in the moment.
This website is not to solicit pity, it’s the last thing I need anyway. Meandering thoughts and random clicks is just a way for me to share and explore.
Sadly I have had to display my photographs in small size due to some people and sites borrowing them. I truly apologise.