Thank you for dropping by.

It has taken me a long time to get the courage to make a public website, to share my thoughts and photos.  For as long as I can remember I have put my thoughts and feelings down on paper.  I have never been able to tell people what I felt and although I put most of these feelings on paper, I never really shared them either.  I have boxes of notes, notepads, and scraps of paper that just sit there.  From time to time I might go back and read some, but many are something of a release, and those are better off left hidden and forgotten.

10 Years ago I was diagnosed with Complex Post Traumatic Stress (Disorder), anxiety, and depression.  These “injuries” I sustained on duty.  It has taken me a long time to get to a stage where I can share some of my thoughts and images and each one has a story to me.  I served my country, and I served my community.  Both have left me with scars which may fade externally with time but I will carry some of the memories forever.  I suppose this website is a step in my journey of self discovery.  I am trying to find out who I am now because I am not the man I once was.

In sharing these thoughts, images, and videos publicly I am giving others an insight into who I was, and who I am now.  Ernest Hemmingway once said, “In order to write about life first you must live it.”  I have so much to be grateful for, my life, up until it all came crashing down was exciting, I have had opportunities I could never have dreamed of.  I have loved, deeply, and unselfishly and have a second chance to do so.  I have seen the best in man, but I have also seen the worse.  I have demons that follow me and attack when I am at my lowest or at night. However, when I sit down to write or get behind a lense I am lost to my pain, the horrible memories fade and I am, just for a brief time, being lost in the moment.

This website is not to solicit pity, it’s the last thing I need anyway.  Meandering thoughts and random clicks is just a way for me to share and explore.

Do Not Judge Me
Why must I be something that clearly I am not? Why must I wear a cloak that bears not my
Would you read my book?
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Springbook Australia
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As I See It
It was an unusually dark night even with the multitude of city lights casting their glow over the river. I
The Fat Bastard
The Fat Bastard - AKA The Empurrer Tobias The 1st, or just Toby is my Cat.  I'm not sure why
Stormy Night
“When you come out of the storm, you won’t be the same person who walked in. That’s what this storm’s
The Beauty and Power of Nature
In nature, light creates color. In the picture, color creates the light:-  Hans Hofmann    
My Demons
There is no cure for that which awaits me every night, no relief from what I cannot see yet fear
We Are Our Own Worse Enemies
Mother Nature has cared for these trees, saved them from drought, disease, avalanches, and a thousand tempests and floods. But
Just Me
“In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on.” ― Robert Frost I know my

 

 

 

Sadly I have had to display my photographs in small size due to some people and sites borrowing them.  I truly apologise.

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